Tuesday, June 23, 2015

Remember Yesterday?

Remember when I wrote a post yesterday about not being inspired? Well... I have a sore throat right now, and for 2 days I have barely slept. In the middle of the night I dreamed/hallucinated an idea that I think is going to be AWESOME! I'll tell you all about it when I get it all ready... but here's a hint


Get ready for the release!

Monday, June 22, 2015

It's Been A While...

Hi There, 

I haven't been complaining writing for a while. Posting pictures of photography sessions doesn't really count, does it? Not really what my blog is about, but it's my blog so get off my back! The truth is I feel stuck right now. Has that ever happened to you? There's something you enjoy doing, but you just don't feel inspired by it for a while... maybe nothing of value, or what you think is of value, comes to your mind. That's what's been going on with me. I know I'm writing now, but it's still going on. I have an idea of what I want to accomplish, or multiple possibilities and lots of motivation, but the desire or love for these potential things just isn't there. 


So I'm sorry I haven't been around. I really do want to write a book and post it chapter by chapter here. Maybe it would just be a short story, who knows, but nothing is coming to me. Which is weird for me, because usually I have too many thoughts and ideas to contain them. 

Any ways. I got a lot of hate from my disclaimer posts, and it... hurt. I got a lot of love too, but we all tend to focus on the negative, am I right? But it left me in this place. This stuck place of wondering what I want for myself, what I want to accomplish, what I want to do with myself, what it's all worth to me. I didn't really second guess before, and now? ... stuck. 

I want to do what I want to do. Now I'm realizing that I can make mistakes and I need to realize that it will happen and I need to be okay with it. I need to not let it stop me from the next thing, and it has. Let me tell you... I have watched a LOT of T.V.... insane amounts. More than usual. Not the fun kind of binging, where you meet up with friends and have a Lord Of The Rings marathon. It's the kind that makes you feel gross after. It's like when you feel better after you clean, but you hate getting started. I don't want to clean!!! But I know it's what I need to do to get out of this rut. 


I'll just re-watch Buffy The Vampire Slayer and THEN get started... I promise!

P.S. No one stop by! I'm a disaster!

Wednesday, June 10, 2015

7 Day Old Holly

 Had my last mini promotional session with this sweetie. She's such a sweetheart!

9 Day Old Gaige

work work work. That's been me lately. I did a newborn shoot with this little cutie. 

Wednesday, May 27, 2015

More Photos - Lynn

I did another photo shoot the other day. I love it. I love taking classes and learning more and more about photography and lighting. It's fun. I don't get a lot of practice because I don't promote myself (I'm shy!) but when I do I almost always have a lot of fun. This session was with little Lynn. I know her Mama so we had a blast. The same song was sung over and over. I had never heard of it, but it was hilarious to hear Mama sing it over and over while dancing behind me. The results are below! Enjoy.

Monday, May 25, 2015


I love summer. It allows Milo to really let go of everything and have fun. I bought a bunch of finger painting supplies and ended up using every single one of them, it was too much fun to see him so alive and happy. When I snapped this photo he was at a point of complete peace. He has just been laying in the dirt and looked like he might fall asleep when I heard him mumble "happy". He sat up and I snapped this. I love this kid. 
He's awesome. 

This was Abbott watching Milo. It's weird having kids that are complete opposites. Abbott wouldn't go NEAR the table of paint. He was so grossed out!

Friday, May 15, 2015


I'm white. Very very white. 

I'm been told that I look:

Like A ghost
Like A Vampire (before they were cool)
Like Christina Ricci in Adams Family
Like A Goth
Fair (from my mom trying to be nice about my whiteness)
aaannnnndddd ...White. 

I have been tan once in my life. It was right before I was married 9 years ago. I worked at a landscaping company and was outside 8-10 hours a day. That's when I got engaged to Brett, so in a way I completely deceived him into thinking I have a glow at all times.

(Brett and me at his parents house when we were engaged)  

...boy was he wrong.

(5 years later when I had recently given birth to Milo. I'm with my sister and I'm the one on the right. This is in the dead of winter so that explains my sisters whiteness, but during the summer I usually look exactly the same, and my sister looks like...)


I'm not sure what it is about me that makes my skin turbo white and my sisters all nice and glow-like. I blame my dad. Take a guess at which one is my dad in the picture below...

No, you're not staring directly into the sun, that's my Dad on the right.

Don't I ever go outside? Yes, of course I do. I'm outside all summer with my kids, but you've got to remember that it took me working at a landscaping company, where I worked 10 hour days all week long to get to a glow tan or as my husband calls it "normal looking skin". My skin was just not made to look glow-like. 

Well, as part of my "getting myself together" I bought myself some tanning minutes so I can feel good and maybe stop hearing "MY EYES!" when I'm in a swim suit. I've been going for about a month and there's no change. Zip. My husband was laughing about it and suggested I start taking pictures of my progress here. 

I decided that was a fantastic idea.

I know I've already started, but I've only been about 8 times. I'll take a picture of my face, arms and legs. I'll post the results here at the end of the summer. 

I'll leave you with a picture of me riiiiiiiiiiiiiight....NOW:

Be nice. I just woke up!